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You died on a Tuesday
You took your own life
I wonder if you thought
At all of your wife
I was left alone
Half of a whole
Left to patch up
My anguishing soul

I woke the next day
With all the lights on
That’s how I slept
Now you were gone
Filled with regret
Anger and dread
I couldn’t continue
Now you were dead

But then there was light
Light from a friend
Who taught me what
To do when life ends
And then there were tears
Just as before
I wondered if
There would ever be more

And then there was light
From my church home
Love and support
I wasn’t alone
And when there were tears
Just as before
I wondered less
If there would ever be more

And then there was light
Each day from God
Who continually told me
Whose child I was
And when there were tears
Just as before
I started to hope
There would one day be more

And then there was light
In the form of a call
I was moving to Texas
Seminary next fall
And when there were tears
Just as before
I grew to believe
There would one day be more

And then there was light
In classes each day
God had been faithful
In showing the way
And when there were tears
Now less than before
I now believed
God was showing me more

And then there was light
In the form of a man
Who, when I grieved,
Patiently held my hand
Our bond grew strong
Each day we talked
He was loving and kind
And he never balked
At the tears from my loss
At my anger toward “him”
And then there was love

I Do

Then a kiss

There were many less tears
Than I had before
I finally knew
That I’d found my more